okay, i realise something, my life is screwed up, to some extent...
maybe it's coz i'm screwing it up, or th fact that i'm just screwed up bah...
hmm, wasnt feeling well today, when i woke up, so didn't go school, rested the whole day
anyway, back to the point, i've basically totally screwed up this year's mid-year CT... obtaining a score of below 3.3 overall, which is far below my capability... i should start working harder now? but work hard for what? i dun like the teachers(except history, that explains the score for hist), they are just god damn unreasonable, and full of crap... i miss my primary school teachers... with teachers like that i just dun feel the motivation to work hard, there isn't the urge/the desire to score higher, more like i just heck care everything =.= basically, i feel that somehow i've adapted this negative attitude towards studies, which i think mainly due to the teachers (and again, except for hist, which had a great teacher...) and due to that,leads to my "sian-ness" in studying...
and i just decided to quit 3rd lang, maybe mostly because i'm just lazy and feels like slacking... but also, i just dun want to study, dun like to study, dun like school anymore ( RI SUCKS)
which leads to another point, why i come RI first place? it isn't all that great which i thought it would be when i was in pri sch... firstly, i dun like my classmates, it's full of muggers, and nerds, and com geeks, it's like, i exist in another world different from theirs, that probably includes most GEPers in RI, irritating, annoying boring =.= then goes back to the point that i dun like the teachers, yah, that concludes all
apart from studies, i'm somewhat screwing up in rugby also... dun feel like going training >.< and i think i'm getting fatter, maybe just my imagination bah...
and there are also other aspects, which simply have so setbacks and fustrations... and sometimes i realise i'm faced with situations which i simply couldn't do a damn thing about, very fustrating indeed, it's like, one of the FIRST, RARE problems, which i'm like, totally helpless, and just couldn't do a thing lah =.= wth...
and to conclude, i'm just losing purpose and signifigance and motivation in life... slowly rotting away, maybe one day i'll rewaken bah... shall just wait for that day... kinda need some kind of breakthrough now >.<
maybe it's coz i'm screwing it up, or th fact that i'm just screwed up bah...
hmm, wasnt feeling well today, when i woke up, so didn't go school, rested the whole day
anyway, back to the point, i've basically totally screwed up this year's mid-year CT... obtaining a score of below 3.3 overall, which is far below my capability... i should start working harder now? but work hard for what? i dun like the teachers(except history, that explains the score for hist), they are just god damn unreasonable, and full of crap... i miss my primary school teachers... with teachers like that i just dun feel the motivation to work hard, there isn't the urge/the desire to score higher, more like i just heck care everything =.= basically, i feel that somehow i've adapted this negative attitude towards studies, which i think mainly due to the teachers (and again, except for hist, which had a great teacher...) and due to that,leads to my "sian-ness" in studying...
and i just decided to quit 3rd lang, maybe mostly because i'm just lazy and feels like slacking... but also, i just dun want to study, dun like to study, dun like school anymore ( RI SUCKS)
which leads to another point, why i come RI first place? it isn't all that great which i thought it would be when i was in pri sch... firstly, i dun like my classmates, it's full of muggers, and nerds, and com geeks, it's like, i exist in another world different from theirs, that probably includes most GEPers in RI, irritating, annoying boring =.= then goes back to the point that i dun like the teachers, yah, that concludes all
apart from studies, i'm somewhat screwing up in rugby also... dun feel like going training >.< and i think i'm getting fatter, maybe just my imagination bah...
and there are also other aspects, which simply have so setbacks and fustrations... and sometimes i realise i'm faced with situations which i simply couldn't do a damn thing about, very fustrating indeed, it's like, one of the FIRST, RARE problems, which i'm like, totally helpless, and just couldn't do a thing lah =.= wth...
and to conclude, i'm just losing purpose and signifigance and motivation in life... slowly rotting away, maybe one day i'll rewaken bah... shall just wait for that day... kinda need some kind of breakthrough now >.<
posted by Luwei | 10:26:00 PM
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