okay, i havent blogged for a long long time, but recently something of a considerably big importance had taken place in my life so i guess i'll just write it down, for memories sake. i dont know how many people still actually reads my blog (sadly this is not xanga), but it really doesnt matter.
On monday, the 14th of april 2008, at approximately 5.27pm at padang, it officially marked the ending of our B div rugby season. We lost to acsi by a score of 11-15. i will not go into the details of the match, go read the newspaper if you're interested to know. anyway, it was a heartbreaking experience for all raffles ruggers, or even for all rafflesians who felt the rafflesian spirit that day. we were so meant to win, but we didnt. we performed, but the results just didnt go our way. many of us teared after the match, but there was nothing we could do. even though many came and comforted us, but what got stuck in my head was that nobody remembers the 2nd place. So what if we got into the finals? So what if we brought RI back to Padang? 10 years down the road, what everyone will remember is that ACSI won the B div title AGAIN in year 2008, and RI lost the title AGAIN for a total of 17 years running.
and what's worse for me personally was that i didnt even play in the finals. not even for a single minute. After four years of hard training, i was dropped from the first team half a month before the rugby B div season. and from there, everything just went down the hill. my morale was low and i just wasnt improving. many times i asked myself, how did this happen? From the glorious top try scorer in sec 2 c div, i've became so lousy that i couldnt even play on the finals. My journey in RI rugby has ended painfully, and this would be something i'll never forget. However, despite the sad ending all of us has gone through, the entire journey will always remain a memorable one. Since sec 1, we've gone through lots of shit as a team, and up to now in sec 4, i've found many friends within the team, even though i've made some damn bad choices in the past.
okay so enough said, life has to go on and i have to perform better. speaking of life, i'm actually quite lost in my directions, uncertain of what i'm going to do with it. As far as i can see, everything's not exactly going in the right way other than my pretty high GPA =/dont know what i'm going to do in JC, what subj comb to take, what cca to join. but i believe all these will eventually straighten out, and i'll find my place. afterall, life's beautiful =)
