hmm, i realise i complain too much and do too little


i'm expecting too much and thinking too little


therefore, i shall be satisfited with what i have already


AND it's time to get back into shape


because i've found my motivation =)

feels like blogging some more, adding on to just now


coz i forgot to add, everything just seems to be pointless somehow... everyday i'm sitting around, rotting my time away... not good >.< but then again, it's just like, i don't care... and i realise i don't care that much about my studies like i used to... nowadays when i do badly for test, then it's like "okay lor, do badly then do badly lor...big deal..." that kind of attitude, which is obviously not good... aiyah, i dunno what to do le lah, just don't feel like working hard, shall continue to slack some more first, and see what happen...


anyway, thought of a new sentence "most teachers simply have some problems with my exsistence"

okay, i realise something, my life is screwed up, to some extent...


maybe it's coz i'm screwing it up, or th fact that i'm just screwed up bah...


hmm, wasnt feeling well today, when i woke up, so didn't go school, rested the whole day


anyway, back to the point, i've basically totally screwed up this year's mid-year CT... obtaining a score of below 3.3 overall, which is far below my capability... i should start working harder now? but work hard for what? i dun like the teachers(except history, that explains the score for hist), they are just god damn unreasonable, and full of crap... i miss my primary school teachers... with teachers like that i just dun feel the motivation to work hard, there isn't the urge/the desire to score higher, more like i just heck care everything =.= basically, i feel that somehow i've adapted this negative attitude towards studies, which i think mainly due to the teachers (and again, except for hist, which had a great teacher...) and due to that,leads to my "sian-ness" in studying...


and i just decided to quit 3rd lang, maybe mostly because i'm just lazy and feels like slacking... but also, i just dun want to study, dun like to study, dun like school anymore ( RI SUCKS)


which leads to another point, why i come RI first place? it isn't all that great which i thought it would be when i was in pri sch... firstly, i dun like my classmates, it's full of muggers, and nerds, and com geeks, it's like, i exist in another world different from theirs, that probably includes most GEPers in RI, irritating, annoying boring =.= then goes back to the point that i dun like the teachers, yah, that concludes all


apart from studies, i'm somewhat screwing up in rugby also... dun feel like going training >.< and i think i'm getting fatter, maybe just my imagination bah...


and there are also other aspects, which simply have so setbacks and fustrations... and sometimes i realise i'm faced with situations which i simply couldn't do a damn thing about, very fustrating indeed, it's like, one of the FIRST, RARE problems, which i'm like, totally helpless, and just couldn't do a thing lah =.= wth...


and to conclude, i'm just losing purpose and signifigance and motivation in life... slowly rotting away, maybe one day i'll rewaken bah... shall just wait for that day... kinda need some kind of breakthrough now >.<

yoz, basically my tests results are more or less set le


4.0 for hist, 3.6 for chi, 3.2 for sci, 3.2 for geog, 2.8 for lit, 2.4 for math


more or less like that, overall: 3.2


this CT is damn suay for me

1. Missed 4.0 for chi in CT by 0.5 marks, missed overall 4.0 by 1.2 marks
2. 1 mark away from full marsk for HISTORY, 24/25
3. Failed math by 1/2 a mark, 24.5/50
4. 1 mark away from 3.6 for overall sci, 69 marks
5. 1 mark away from 3.6 for overall geog, 69 marks


anyway, my high subject is damn high, getting 94% overall for hist, while my low subject is damn slow, getting 58% for math (somewhere around that) >.< damn unbalanced LAH, oh yah, i'm highest in class for history XD ^^


screwed up all the rest though, so yah, that concludes my first half of the year

i'm feeling kinda lame, a bit sian, super bored, and very restless now >.<

want to go out somewhere and play something or just do something

rather than stay and home and do dunno what =.=

okay anyway, i screwed up my science paper, like TOTALLY >.<>.< DIE LAH, it's like, i guessed half of the paper, and dunno the other half... i go put the DNA G matches with A, and C matches with T lor... die liao die liao

okay so back to my point, i'm restless and bored... who wants to go out some time??

okay revision's not too bad

although i still dun understand much

and am super bored >.<

interesting, even thought i didn't TOUCH my chi stuff at all yesterday, and looked through them for about 10 mins today, the chinese paper still seemed to be VERY EASY XD so yah, guess i'll score well in that x)

the geog paper was erm... EASY too, however i dun really know what i was answering, hmm, in another words, i know how to answer, but i dunno what crap i'm writing lah... so yah =P

anyway, i'm like the TOP 8 in geog for CA this semester, LOL, managed to meet the 3.6 mark exactly, 70.00, amazing... i'm sleeping half of the time, and talking during the other half... can get top 8 like that lor, haha x)

hmm, tmr's science, and friday's math, again die... science is erm, confusing, and maths is like, more confusing... so yah, i'll be confused and dun think will score that well >.< havent start mugging yet, shall mug a while later x)

PS: tmr dismissed at 9+, yay! x)

okay, end of my revision tonight

i've revised a LITTLE bit of geog, and HAVEN'T touched chinese

okay, so i'll probably get 3.2 now

hmm, nvm, i shall be an average student this year, instead of an outstanding one... =)

dont feel like doing anything le, SLACKING TIME

sian, i sound like a mugger trying to calculate my GPA >.<

or in another words, sound like a jianxiong =P

okay nvm, i don't care already, just do whatever comes, and leave the rest to luck =)

couldn't be bothered le lah

today's two paper was like, EASY XD

haha, no revision needed de =)

hmm, one day passed, 3 more days to go

die lah, tomorrow is geog and chinese, two mugging subjects

and the problem is... i have yet to started mugging, again >.<

no idea what has been happening in geog (as usual) and chinese also a lot of remember, die le...

lets do a recalculation of my GPA:

math 2.8, english 2.8, History 4.0, chinese 3.6, Science 3.2, Geog 2.8

overall : 3.2

okay, that's the lowest lowest possible GPA i'll get, sad... =(

hmm, i realise i'm more or less screwed for CT (common test, another term for exams)

tmr is hist and lit paper, and i'm going to start revising, soon

which means i have yet to start revising

which means i probably wont do very well

which is not good

ahhh, nvm, shall go revise and be more guaii

byee x)

the show was NICE, it the suspense was cool =)

about this girl receiving a call from a stranger while she was babysitting, yah... very nice lah =)

okay, now i'm back home, dunno what to do le >.<

dun feel like sleeping...