awakening
anyway, i think i'm not mentally strong enough to force myself to study, too restless man, and studying is like, boring, perhaps it is this very concept that makes it so difficult for me to study. In class today Mr Tan Weng Seng (year head+ cle teacher) talked about the education system, spoke about career choices and university+JC VS poly+ ITE, and all the different schools. It makes me wonder, what would life be like if i'm in neighbourhood school? or maybe a lousier school like ACSI? first of all i think i'll certainly be much happier there, at least for the time being. The truth is RI is not a very happy place to be in if you're someone normal, only the extremely gifted and smart and talented people finds work here fun and interesting =.= and if you dont like what you're doing, chances are you wont enjoy it, then you'll end up doing it badly =/ then he went on to talk about career choices and all the nonsense, I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANNA BE IN THE FUTURE! how? i think this is very bad, and i need to make up my mind soon. All i know is that whatever i'll end up doing i'll be successful in doing it =)
now, my results totally piss me off. math dropped from 81 to 72, chem dropped from 92 to 73, bio, physics, english all going to drop from 80+ to 70+, this is definitely saddening, and because of that, overall grade dropped from 3.85 to most likely a 3.6+, which is extremely good compared to last year, but sucks compared to expectations placed on me.
so i've decided to buck up before it's too late, and start actually giving my best in all i do, like i used to in primary school. and as long as i can do that, everything will really be fine. And i'm gonna train super hard for tennis, go for rugby PTs and do basically everything well and good, it's time to wake up and take control of my life.
who am i, really...?